Child Free by Choice

I have been doing a lot of "soul searching" recently, and one thing that has bothered me lately, and that is that all though I have sexual urges, I don't want to reproduce. I thought seriously there was something wrong with me. More so then usual. So, being bored waiting for some friends to show up, I went to the internet and typed in the simple phrase "I don't want Children". Apparently I am not alone (at least not in a global scale...here in Utah, is a different matter altogether). There are orginizations out there, made for those of us who just don't want kids. There are a lot of compelling reasons to not have kids, so for an example, I will list some that I have found while surfing

1) I am still trying to get my life in order. Until I've done that, it is unfair to bring one into the world. I love this one, for those who know me know that my life is far from in order. How am I supposed to bring another human into this world if my life isn't in order?

2)Until I've found a place where it's physically and psychologically safe to raise a child, I'm not going to bring one into the word. Not sure I agree with this one, but it is a point none of the less.

3)Until the thousands of children who are already born and need food, clothes, homes, parents, etc. are taken care of, I'm not going to bring another child into the world just because I want one that looks like me or has my genes. I like this one, because there are a lot of children out there who already born who don't have what they need, so why should I bring another one in, when I am not sure I can take care of it properly. This is also a good argument for adoption as far as I am concerned.

So, my big reason for it? I don't want to pass on my mental problems to a child. If I was going to bring a child into the world, I would want to give them the best possible start they could, and I know I just can't do it, and I choose not to do it. Even if I could produce children, I wouldn't.

And yes, for those who know me. I do feel lonely, and this is just shooting myself in the foot, but I would rather be alone then having to date someone who is set on having children someday and knowing I would let them down big time. It will take longer to find someone, I don't deny that, but I am willing to wait for that someone who knows what I mean, and would still love to spend time toegether.

EDIT (Feb 07, 2007):
Hmmm, maybe I am over thinking this, as usual. Maybe I am just not ready for kids right now. And may not be for quite sometime. The fact is, most people I seem to talk to want kids in the next few years. I don't. 5, 10 years down the road maybe, but I want to enjoy life first, and I guess I have to find someone who doesn't want kids immeaditly, and is open to discussion of choosing to be Child Free...